Have you lost that loving feeling? Not me! I found it!

I think now I want to pursue a surgical nursing path in my career. Mr. Milton opened the door for me in allowing me to think about it. Then I was talking to a few people at work and viola I am scheduled to be observing an orthopedic surgeon on thursday. Im supper psyched about it and cant wait. I feel this is my way to give back and learn. I just love this new feeling and excitement of finally being able to know your own sense of self. Things are finally clicking. the birds with feathers flock together, but the eagle soars alone. I am that eagle. I can and will do it! Ahhh! cant wait! So I spent the nite watching some real life surgeries by medical schools. Its like watching an episode that you should look away but cant! Ahh I love this feeling!

btw, patrick swayse died today after losing a battle with pancreatic cancer of 20 years. and that yale student got stuffed in the lab wall. she was from placerville.

and leroy and them wanted me to watch, an officer and a gentlemen...sometime maybe lol.

My new cruiser deck in memory of Tom

zig zagger 8.6 x 32
Indy 149 trucks
58mm krooked wheels

bone swiss bearings

Goodbye Tom, I'll always cherish your memory and the times we spent together. May you rest in peace

Tom you were one of my favorite people at the Nine16 Skate shop. I was there for your opening and am your loyal customer and skater. From the times we hung out, smoked a j and drank you began to be a very cool friend. As we started to skate more together, just mob down streets and kickbacks, I felt really happy. You would always give me discounts on the stuff I would buy. I remember I bought the same matix pants that you were wearing and also that chocolate hat just the past week. Your death on monday really took me by surprise, because just the past friday we were hanging out, playing skate, and you were showing me about that power band thing. I cant bring myself to see that accident where you were hit. I sobbed when I saw your blood stains on the road with chalk circled around it. I wish I was there to push you aside from that car. I just miss you man. And when I see that picture of you holding your two girls, it kills me inside. I lost 3 close friends already to car accidents and you are the 4th. I will try my best to take off work to attend your funeral on monday. If not, my most sincerest regrets and apologies. I have been praying for you the past week and for your family. And I try to stop by where you were hit and light the candles out there. We are all saying that we should turn that spot into a skate spot lol, but iono how that would go. Bobby seems to be taking it ok now, but it hit him hard. Man, from knowing you since 12 years old I cant imagine how he must feel. But it seems like he is doing better. I think his daughter Tiara is helping him a lot. I just bought a Zig zaggar deck the other day and it would be in your honor. I will always remember you with this board. So, thanks for all the memories, I will still try to check in on everyone and I hope that you will be fine. Goodbye Tom, we will meet again. But not yet, not yet.